Stand by Me

This weekend got me thinking a lot about the people that are there for us in our lives. What happens when the people that you count on aren't there? I think that may be one of the hardest thing in any situation. Something major going on in your life, and the thing you need the most is a friend, who isn't there. I certainly know that some things you have to go through on your own, but I would like to think that there are people that can always be counted on. Maybe there is no such thing. I know that I am not always there when people want me, but I would like to think that I am there when the chips are down, and someone I care about needs me to be there. Maybe that is too much optimizing.

I don't really want to belabor the point, I just am greatly frustrated at the moment, and I wonder what it is that I am missing. Many of my closest friends honestly are consistently absent from my life when I need them, whereas others are there for me when I don't expect it, and for the most part aren't really all that close to me. Should it matter? Am I making poor decisions in friends? What about family? Sometimes I think maybe I expect too much. I am probably somewhat unrealistic, but I feel that if a person really wants to, they can make things happen. If my friends or family wanted to be there, I think that they could. I believe that the world is malleable, and I suppose if you don't see it that way it is easy to say "I can't." I try and understand this, but its really hard, especially when I am down.

One person in particular that is phenomenal at standing me up always has good reasons, but they are starting to feel like good excuses. At what point do I stop being understanding, and start reevaluating our relationship? Speaking of relationships, how strong of a relationship can you have, especially beyond friendship, that doesn't have both parties consistently there for one another.

I believe that I can take on the world by myself when I have to, but I don't believe that a man has to walk this world alone. It would be nice to know that I had people in my life that would be there for me, no matter what.